I should not be falling in love.
Not now.
I should not be falling in love.
Not now.
Will be migrating soon.
The blog, that is.
Watch this space.
Finishing up work on Her Black Majesty.
I am dead tired.
Okay, I think my blog’s dying.
So here’s an update:
Hi.
Today, the world feels alright. I feel alright.
Thanks babe.
Wolverine, MTG, a little Mahjong.
To top it all off, a little chat with a lovely… acquaintence on the phone. Her little good morning set the scene for the perfect ending for this perfect day/night/morning.
I’ll head to bed now. Life is good.
Is it over?
Please say it’s over. =/
Jester says that at times I act with little to no reck whatsoever, especially when it comes to things regarding my wellbeing.
I really don’t think telling her about my family history regarding the organic pump residing within my body helped either. She feels that I’m placing too much pressure on myself in order to succeed and that I’m not caring for myself enough. I guess that is true to some degree, I really don’t care how far I fall, as long as I reach where I want to be.
Will I sacrifice friends for this cause? I doubt so. I care for them too much.
I know how much she cares, I know how much the old crew cares, I know that the people closest to me care. That, is enough for me.
Truth be told, I don’t really care if I live or die now. Haven’t cared for quite some time. I’m really living each day as is, be it how awesome or how mundane the day may be.
I’ll be alright, for the short term anyways, so old friend, don’t worry.
Tonight, just for tonight. Life sucks.
In 7 hours, I’ll be fine.
Open your fucking eyes and take a good hard look.
You live, breathe, eat, drink, walk and play.
Yet at every waking moment you complain. About food, the roads, the public transport, your friends, your shoes, your clothes, how your mom nags, the number of foreign workers amongst us, the government, your nail colors, school – these are but a fraction of the things you complain about. Oh, I’ve yet to even start on your demands. Well you know what, fuck you. Fuck you and everything you’ve ever lived for, not like you’ve lived for anything to begin with, fuck your existence.
You waste your time, idling, twiling your thumbs, procrastinating, lazy and complacent. All this time while others out there are killing each other, slitting throats to get by on a daily basis. You don’t need to beg for morsels of food by a dusty road, you don’t need to sell your body in order to be fed for one more day. You have no direction, no goals, no aims, how different are you from sheep?
I honestly have never seen anyone like you. How can anyone be so sheltered, so closed-minded? When would you learn to appreciate the things around you, the people around you, the world around you? When would you learn that the world is not only in little Singapore? When would you understand that not everyone goes overseas to shop?
I don’t have time to entertain the likes of you, thus this post, so I don’t have to keep telling you this shit.
Your shallowness disgusts me.